Why can't I forgive him derail

I, Joe Mo bud,markchress this year already twenty-two 27 years old, graduated from the department of huaqiao university, the year married self three-year-old man, which is now has become my ex-husband's text, be also that if we mention name still makes me cannot last season as man, the reason is introduced so much, just want to have good memories of slowly pick up, bring to send this boring all night long.

 

Missing is tortured people edge tool, I successfully by original still calculate plump became now slender emaciated, don't know to isn't a big harvest, or a big audience.

 

The worst is the missing pain in the heart bottom continuously chew gnaws my heart, unable to breathe pain lets me become don't like the original me, that happy I, that experience a love and marriage, and I lost love, marriage, I lost the bustling city I still deep read names - wen if we, how should I just can will you forget?

 

Tears and rain as ruthless blurred my sight, Or I cannot ignore it when again secretly slide tears, when, I have so fragile, so fragile, it's not your ah, Joe Mo bud, you how so distressed?

 

I have been unusually went to the pub, I want anaesthetizing self, although such results may be more disconcerting, more pitiful, more ridiculous, but also helpless, the remedy is worse than the outside of a consolation.

 

Pain is not the end of marriage, not the emergence of a third party, but he is his change, is his wavering heart about two women happy, but he is selfish choices let oneself most comfortable role, a disappointment, how many in the eyes of standard model husband ah, how many eyes praise and admired unceasingly husband ah, I have to have him is so proud of it, but now I don't know what to do, and why, will like this. We had already reached between the point of have no way to continue?

 

Why can't I forgive him derail, I can't endure his mistakes, his heart? And even a heart? Only myself know, I love him too much, the love of so deep, love of so earnest, in recent years to him I had abandoned the original simplex of I, successful by a fantasy girl became a prudent wife gentleness of, but I do not know when that drew his shadow disappeared, in his eyes I was just an ordinary me?